Sorry.

Oh fuck it's been so long since the last post I made.. I guess I just lost the habit, I miss it though, I'm back.

So my weight? Yeah it's fucking whalish after christmas and just me being fat in general, 65.3kg, this morning. I've GOT to lose that, I just have to. So I'm going to start going to the gym heaps and not eating. I've been having the choice to see my boyfriend, or go to the gym... And what do I pick? Fuck.
So my mother, she got really angry at me when she found out that I starved myself and such. But I heard her telling people yesterday that she's fasting and stuff for weight loss. I've gotta do this.
I've had one cup of tea this morning, with full cream milk - 40 calories? I hope I stay under 500 for the day.
And a fruit salad.. 70 calories around.
That's 110 calories today. 390 to go.

I have a boyfriend of 2 month, I've talked about him before.
Him and I are the complete opposite people..
He is against all the things that I do, and have always done (drinking, smoking, drugs etc..) He's a 'praying, church attending' christian, and I'm an very firm atheist. He loves meat, I'm an on-off vegan and always vegetarian. He likes all the music and movies I don't, and I like all the music and movies he doesn't.
But we get on just fine. And his sister (she's my age), she's become a good friend, except she used to hate me because apparently that's what she does with all his girlfriends, which is true because I remember before he broke up with his last girlfriend for me, she was telling me about how much she hates her.
So yeah, I pretty much live at their place, meaning eating because insists, and eating because his mother insists.

I have two jobs now, one at a coffee place and the other at a salad/sandwich bar. The sandwich bar, is run by an Italian family who always call me 'bella' and 'darling' and when annoyed they say 'mamma mia!' Ha, gotta love it. I'm earning way more than I used to.. I have a list of things I'm saving to buy - a treadmill, a tv, a rug for my room, a new laptop because mine is way past it's use by date, and a new ipod because mine is totally broken. The other day my mother took out 130 dollars out of my account, because I said she could take out 30, fuck that. It was only to 'borrow' but she could have asked me. And when I confronted her, she denied it at first and then admitted and then payed me back, but within a few days she asked to borrow another 100. Well jesus christ, why did I even get a job?
And I'm getting pet ferrets! Woo! I'm so excited. How can you not love them? I was going to get pet rats at first, but my dad decided he liked ferrets better, and so do I.. It's just that they are much more expensive. I used to have an ex who had pet ferrets, we took them for walks and stuff. Sometimes we even took them to my favourite cafe and tied them to the leg of the chairs and let them run around, it was great.
So got any good ferret names anybody?

I'm currently staying at my uncles place, he lives sort of out in the country, in a small town. We went for two mini bushwalks, they were tiring but awesome, nature is so beautiful! My cousin is like the hot version of me, it sucks a little bit, but she's so nice. My mother and I were supposed to leave yesterday morning, but our car broke down, so we stayed the night, my dad is coming to get me this morning and my mother is staying another night. I was supposed to spend the last two nights at my boyfriend's because his mother is out of town.