Magic Mushrooms

Well yesterday AFTER the grandmother luncheon, I slept at my friend's house, and of course had dinner with her family. SO:
1 spiced lentil burger - 500
ginger chocolate icecream - 200

crackers - 105

cous cous & mushrooms - 250

seaweed snack - 7

apple - 50
= 1112
it's okay I suppose.
Anyway - today I'm going to make my mother dinner (she's out at work), and leave it for her with a note.
I found 2 cool recipes I'm gonna use coz I love cooking.
Sweet potato & watercress gnocchi + Tomato & onion jam. :)

I never thought of myself as an emotional eater, but I realised how much I really am. I remember last year when I went through a really depressed point in my life, I gained like 15 pounds. I guess I never really thought about why but it just hit me when I remembered this embarassing thing:

Okay so about a month and a half ago I took magic mushrooms for the second time in my life with some friends. At first it was the BEST, I had the coolest hallucinations and all this awesome stuff, I felt on top of the world. It was like that picture << But then I ended up having the most horrible horrible trip (honestly, don't take them) and spent the whole night crying when my friends fell asleep. I was even considering killing myself. I had convinced myself that the drugs had made me go permanently crazy and that I was going to spend the rest of my life being horribly depressed and that no one would be able to talk to me, I was hearing all these voices, I couldn't see anything properly, just a bunch of hallucinations and it WOULDN'T STOP. So by morning the trip had gone, I was still rather fuzzy and unable to concentrate on anything, it was hard to walk. The point is that I was still really feeling depressed, I couldn't make that feeling dissapear. You know what I ate?? A massive burrito, 1 tub of icecream and half a jar of peanut butter..

So yeah.. Can't believe I did that. Just thought I'd share.