Crying..

SO I didn't eat all day.

and then dinnertime came, and I decided to have a little.

I got a plate of chips and salad.

I basically just ate salad. A lot of it, and then like 10 chips.

...And then I ran t0 the bathroom, and cried on the floor in the cubicle and tried to purge it out.

And I couldn't.

So I just sat there and cried, and then walked back in to musical, and pretended I was fine.

And then my stomach became VERY bloated, I looked pregnant.

And I got really bad abdominal pain which didn't stop for about 7 hours, this has been happening nearly everytime I eat when I haven't for a while. I got it on thursday night too.

I just looked it up, it's a sign on malnutrition or "anorexia"..

I told my friend (he's a great guy) that my stomach was in serious pain and bloated, and I said something like"I shouldn't have eaten that food".. and he started telling me about how I need to eat more and how my body was probably needing it, sorta like he knows. I don't know why, but he's the only one who's noticed my strange eating habits and obsessions.. hmmm.

I really don't think I can be not eating..

I kinda figured that I would stick with my continuous fasting until it became a problem.. and it has. It's making me sick and in pain.

I've spent more than half the days of the last month not eating..

Anyway..